Well this will be a tad rambling not like my other lucid, insightful posts - LOL
When we last left poor Billy he was making his final stand against a bunch of his personal demons. His ship awash, his rudder gone. Yep, Billy had ventured a little too far from the kiddie pool. I love mixed metaphors because it screws with Paxton's study, I'm always aware of you Paxton, who knows what I would have written had I not been aware of you. You fuck!
::sorry, it's obvious I have issues with Paxton::
Anyway I was in real trouble in fantasy land. My self-destructive demon had battened on to my subconscious and was doing it's best to have me destroy my presence in this space. My biggest problem is that after awhile that guy starts to make sense, I was starting to listen ... ::shudders::
So this was the mood I was in when I entered the chat room looking desperately for MsGrace. Jem and ace opened with their usual banter and a few others joined in too. By the time I was done channeling this demon the room was pretty bare.
Sorry room!
So I'm all mopey and bitchy and cranky, a real pain in the ass, er ace and both ace and jem are doing their best to brighten my mood. It's working! Sooo in no particular order
Thank you jem!!!
Thank you ace!!!
So I've got a personal IM opened with jem and we're talking about our favorite subject - MsGrace, and things are looking up when ... an IM from the Princess herself opens!
She's aware that Billy has managed to get himself into a bit of a pickle. Can I use a hand? And I think all I'm capable of typing at that moment in time is "can I call? PLEASE"
She says yes ... she dispatches the demon in about ten seconds using her um powers. She handles Billy's pickle problem. All is well and good ...
Booyah!
I'm not sure what I make of the denial process, I have a few more days to go, apparently there are after effects ::Billy glares at jem and ace, was that what was in the missing pages of the manual you two gave me?!:: I'm not sure I can be a true marathoner, more of a dabbler maybe? I mean unless you guys enjoy Billy meltdowns? ::smile:: Time will tell. But my respect for you two is enormous having just this small taste of what it's like, what you go through.
In closing ... ::stretch, happy sigh::
So, who's on point? Cause it sure as shit isn't me ...
::wicked smile::
PS: Thank you MsGrace!!!
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billy... glad to hear that our Princess beat that demon of yours into submission, and that you feel better now.
ReplyDeleteAs for those missing pages? Well, we intentionally removed those so you wouldn't get scared, because then we wouldn't have you in the same boat with us.... but yes... there are quite a few residual effects that never go away, even after you're allowed release... In my case I think they may be showing up sooner and sooner each time......
little bitchass
"So she turned you into a newt? "
ReplyDeleteDon't worry, he got better....
I need to say, thank goodness you got better!!! I don't want My pets to lose their minds...ok a little...for Me, and all in a good way. ::giggles:: I also am so happy that ace and jemmie were there when I was away, to help you work on all this. They are both wonderful people....::smile:: And so are you billy. ::soft smile::
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