This occurred during the "Clowntime is Over" post.
MsGrace introduces this topic delicately causing my warning antenna to go up.
She says, "About your name ..."
I recall back in my slut days sitting in the chatroom and watching various folk come in and out with Mistress names attached to them. It seemed like at the time quite a few of them were MsGrace's. I would sit back and idly wonder, "Is that causing problems? ..."
I keep in my head that this phone-sex stuff is a business and a very profitable one at that. It seems to me that with this particular business (LDW) that for a lot, if not all of the Ladies, it is their livelyhood or a significant source of income. So when someone walks into the chatroom sporting a Mistress moniker on their name, it not only represents lost revenue (I'm sure that former sluts like me are quite popular among the ladies) to any Mistress who's name is not tagged at the end of the pets name but also a walking advertisement for a competing Mistress.
So, some Mistresses not tagged really don't give a rat's ass about how happy said pet is but will at times be openly hostile because of the advertising associated with it. (BTW: These are my thoughts and not MsGrace's but I imagine her profession is very competative).
I never witnessed any of this first hand but apparently jem has experienced it and what surprised me was he got crap not only from some of the Mistresses but also just folk hanging out in the chatroom. Any of that kind of noise I think I could handle and from what I read I think jem did a remarkable job of dealing with it. Jem if you have any advice for Billy, I'm all ears! Jem also knows the joy, giddyness and happiness I am feeling at the moment and I'm so sorry that feeling was blemished for him! It's not right.
A brief aside: As I witness certain folk starting to close protectively around little Billy (you know who you are) I've got something of a biker mentality when I witness one of my friends being attacked. Right or wrong I'm not the dude trying to pull you off the guy, I'm the dude climbing over you trying to get in one clean punch. In a chatroom scenario I think all of us can pretty much handle ourselves so I don't plan to be a bull in a china shop but give me a nod and I'm all in.
My slutty ways gave both of us cause for concern. Having only recently scrubbed the Slut Factor makeup (by Revlon!) off my face, I need to keep in mind that until I get a little time under my belt I could be suseptable to the "charms" of the other Ladies. MsGrace didn't say anything directly, and sitting here all by myself I feel pretty invulnerable but it is beyond stupid not to keep this foremost in my mind.
There were four Mistresses on my friends list. All but one (MsGrace Herself) are now gone. The three that have been removed have also been blocked. I'm removing temptations. There is nothing personal behind this, from my point of view it's just the business of getting Billy better.
We both decide that at least for the time being there's no reason to paint a bullseye on me. I asked her directly if this would make Her think I was "dissing" her in some manner and she said not at all.
I'm beyond touched by these concerns of MsGrace! She wants this to work also.
For the record: I am so proud of being Her pet and I wanted you to know why, at least for the moment, I'm not bearing Her name.
Those of you who saw me at TeaseTime last night also witnessed my babbling of my new status to MsGrace. I give her sincere thanks but I was also somewhat calculated in the fact that I'm trying to get word out to a large audience which will filter out over time, hopefully in a non-antagonistic manner. Heck I'm probably making a mountain out of a mole hill ... but I will do whatever is necessary to make this work.
I'm not going to call too much attention to myself, I'm not gonna pick a fight, but I won't back down from one if it happens. I will not intentionally cause MsGrace any "behind the curtains" drama. I still want to reflect how happy this little pet is, how glad I am that MsGrace is giving me this opportunity. That "long cool woman in a black dress" is important to me.
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Billykins! You make some really good points here, and said some things that probably needed to be said.
ReplyDeleteI regards to taking Princess' name, I got the same talk 3 or 4 times... that maybe it wasn't a good idea... that it might mean some trouble for me. I think Princess is touched that her pets want to carry her name, but at the same time she cares so much that she doesn't want to see us hurt. She would rather put aside her own feelings to spare ours.
Looking back, I'm glad that I didn't get scared off by the warnings, and eventually I think I wore Princess down (lol) and she finally told me I could have her name. I felt so strongly about Princess that I didn't much care if anybody else liked it or not. The name was like a collar to me, showing everybody how I felt about her, and I was totally happy to wear it. I still am.
I will admit that I was kinda knocked off balance by the first attack, first because I thought it was a joke, and then after I realized it wasn't, by the total stupidity of it. But one thing that surprised me was how it made me feel protective towards Princess. I took it as an insult towards her, and it made me dig in my heels even harder and I resolved right then that I wasn't gonna give in.... ever... Dealing with the rest of the incidents was easy, because I knew then what I was up against and was ready. I felt like I was defending the honor of our Princess, and you can't imagine how good that made me feel. It also served to stick Princess' name on me even stronger.
And you're right... I can't deny the fact that the happy giddy feelings that I had were diminished a little at the time, but they came back quickly enough and are now as strong as they ever were.
I really do appreciate your support regarding the attacks on me. It's good to have friends like you around, and we can watch each others backs and at the same time we can watch out for our Princess. I don't know if I can give you any useful advice Billy, because you seem to have a pretty good handle on things already. I just wish the drama would stop.
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Jemmalicious!
ReplyDeleteThanks for the feedback! The emotions I'm feeling for MsGrace seem to be growing hourly (which is REALLY interesting to experience) and I follow what you're saying about attacks on Her, even indirectly - I'm somewhat shielded at the moment and I hope this doesn't sound self centered but I think I need to get my strength up a little bit before joining you in the front lines.
When she thinks I'm ready and when I think I'm ready (I'll probably be a little bit ahead of her so she'll realize I'm starting to think so when the whining starts - lol) I so hope she'll consent to letting me wear her name. I'll wear it proudly.
But I think MsGrace would agree I have to run this gauntlet and more importantly the time gauntlet and I'll need help. Hers, yours, ace's etc and I'm counting on that help, just by being around, well I think you know what I mean by help. I can get through this slut thing, but I've been one a long time and I love MsGrace (but you know not in a gay way :-)) for shielding me initially. I need that if I'm honest with myself and I'm trying very hard to be honest with myself.
Billy, very interesting and informative post. I find myself gravitating more and more toward those at cc that are friendly and nice, which I think is by far the majority of people there.
ReplyDeleteMy experience is a bit different than some, I guess. My "guidance councelor" has always made it clear to me that if I want to call others in the service, I could. Her work speaks for itself, though, so I doubt I'd be able to find someone better for me.
Regardless, the truth of the matter is a nickname on the blog doesn't really mean anything if you aren't loyal. It's the act of loyalty itself that is important. If you are doing that, you will do just fine.
And, as always, I got yer back. (But, er, not in a gay way.)
Ok I need to post a little something in this one to clear some things up.
ReplyDeleteFor the boys who want to call many, they are sooo free too. I enjoy being on the list of those who get to tease and torment. So that is not a problem.
For those who want ownership....there is a little difference to that. Also depends on the boy and the relationship. I have some boys who want to only call Me, and hey...of course I am ok with that. Who would not be. Then I have others who like to be "pimped out" as I call it. Where I pick who and how long and so on. I have others who call others and just let Me know they are going too, and when they have, the let Me know they did. Its all good. And billy can tell you, I told him these options. But like telling you, all boys and girls are different. My pet billy does not want to call anyone else. He wants to be loyal to only Me. Now will this change? Who ever knows. Will I think he could use a moment with someone else, I have done this. I have talked to jemmie about the idea of sending her to Ms Tara. I think she would be wonderful for her.
So I have different relationships with all different pets. They are all wonderful in there own rights. But I do not control just for the sake of control. I try to do what is best for the pet, when I am the one they have handed their control over too.
So I hope this clears up a little on My thoughts of calling others and playing with others. ::smile::
And your right ace, the Mistress's here are all friendly, depending upon what type of friendly you like. lol You know what I mean, some are friendly but also hard core. There are different types of Mistress's for different type of pets. :-)
We just all have different outlooks, different wants, and different opinions. That is why life is so good. :-)
Ok done with My two cents!!!
Like I mentioned in the "Clowntime" post the interview is quite detailed and MsGrace laid out all of the options.
ReplyDeleteIn my case there was only one. So all the other options were not applicable to me.
Your mileage may vary, which is of course fine.